Why is this so hard, I know it's for the best for us, but I can't help but feel horrible.... but what I'm doing to him is horrible because i'm not ready to be with him, but at the same time, it's not fair to make him wait. Why do I have to be the badguy. I liked it much better when i was the one getting shit on. fuckkkkkk


also i'm pretty sure despite my efforts on growing my hair out and keeping it's natural color, i'm totally over it and cutting it and dying it black again....